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[cjmarlowe]

This is one of those posts that I'm probably going to be horribly embarrassed by and delete tomorrow, but right now it's pouring rain and I'm feeling so trapped in this life and it seems like something I want to do.

I know I've had some rough times over the past few years. I've found myself down some very deep, very dark holes that god forbid I ever actually talk about, and struggled very hard to claw my way back out of them. I know I'm doing that right now. And every time, I lose everyone I had and everything I built. I'm not asking why. I know why. I withdraw and I divert and I alienate and I'm so socially fucking inept that I don't ever know how to fix anything.

So if we've ever been friends, please know that I miss you so much. All of you.

This entry was originally posted at http://cj.dreamwidth.org/21499.html.

Comments

[embroiderama]

*hugs* I very much know what you mean.

[apetslife.livejournal.com]

Honey honey, you are loved and missed as well. ♥

[http://users.livejournal.com/_hannelore/]

*no words, just a big big hug*

[mickeym.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

[tnl.livejournal.com]

Seeing you on LJ always makes me smile - I think of all the pleasure your stories, and your observations, have given me. :: hugs ::

[cathalin.livejournal.com]

I just happened to see this (literally have not been on lj/dw/tumblr etc. for weeks) and just wanted to say, I think you're awesome. Whatever your challenges, my thoughts are with you that you find a way to feel a bit less trapped. I think everyone has times like you're in, or at least most of us do. So don't be embarrassed! I've let stuff out on my journal and sometimes it helps in at least a small way, so do that more if you want to.

<3

[honey-wheeler.livejournal.com]

I can relate to that :( Brainhugs?

[arabella-hope.livejournal.com]

aw, honey! know that i love you, as do so many others -- & while i'm not able to be *right* there with, all my heart is <3

[ruby-fruit.livejournal.com]

*headbutts affectionately*