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Jun. 23rd, 2013 04:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cjmarloweThis is one of those posts that I'm probably going to be horribly embarrassed by and delete tomorrow, but right now it's pouring rain and I'm feeling so trapped in this life and it seems like something I want to do.
I know I've had some rough times over the past few years. I've found myself down some very deep, very dark holes that god forbid I ever actually talk about, and struggled very hard to claw my way back out of them. I know I'm doing that right now. And every time, I lose everyone I had and everything I built. I'm not asking why. I know why. I withdraw and I divert and I alienate and I'm so socially fucking inept that I don't ever know how to fix anything.
So if we've ever been friends, please know that I miss you so much. All of you.
This entry was originally posted at http://cj.dreamwidth.org/21499.html.
I know I've had some rough times over the past few years. I've found myself down some very deep, very dark holes that god forbid I ever actually talk about, and struggled very hard to claw my way back out of them. I know I'm doing that right now. And every time, I lose everyone I had and everything I built. I'm not asking why. I know why. I withdraw and I divert and I alienate and I'm so socially fucking inept that I don't ever know how to fix anything.
So if we've ever been friends, please know that I miss you so much. All of you.
This entry was originally posted at http://cj.dreamwidth.org/21499.html.
