cjmarlowe

I'd kind of forgotten just how much I hate applying for jobs. The whole process is just kind of... ugh. Draining. I am awesome, you should be coming to me! I'm still in my lazy days of summer living off severance phase, though, so I'm only applying for a few things here and there that I think I really, really want. I'm not looking forward to this fall when I'll actually be required to find a job to have money to live on, and thus will have to lower my standards.

This epic whine brought to you by the fact that I'm making myself apply for a couple of jobs before I'm allowed to write anything more for the ontd_ai kink meme. And shower. And possibly leave the apartment today. (The food situation is once again becoming dire.)

Also, I don't think I've mentioned it in the past two years, but I'm @ofthenorth on twitter and if you're wondering if I've dropped off the face of the planet during those weeks when I neglect to update LJ, that's probably a good place to look. :)

Apparently I have to write much, much faster if I want to pick up the prompts I want at comment_fic before someone else does! ;_;

I don't know why I've only been getting 5-6 hours of sleep a night this week when I'm normally a 7-8 hour girl, but I don't seem to be suffering for it so I guess I won't worry too much. I think I've gotten used to this whole 'being up before noon' thing. I think I might even like it. O_o Oh, don't worry, I'm sure the novelty of this whole 'morning' thing will wear off soon. Of course, if I'm going to have to find a day job that's actually, you know, during the day (god, just the thought of that just made my stomach plummet) I guess I should stick with it.

ETA: The boys (and girl) are looking good.

So my body has this... well, I guess you could call it an early warning system: I get nightmares a day or two before I get sick. And not just run-of-the-mill nightmares, but really deeply horrifying ones. The one thing they all usually have in common is that they are intensely personal; some of them I've never told anyone about because I can't even express how awful they were to me. On Tuesday night I had a nightmare about dinosaurs. Which probably sounds funny because dinosaurs are awesome but was actually really awful and terrifying. Because it didn't have that intensely personal aspect I more or less wrote it off as stress, or just a random nightmare, but sure enough on Wednesday night at work I was so lightheaded and dizzy I could barely read or type, and by Thursday I was so exhausted that I literally couldn't keep my eyes open about an hour before I was supposed to leave for work and ended up going in late so I could nap. Friday the actual congestion set in and ugh, winter cold.

So apologies for not being around much these last few days, to anyone who might've been expecting me. But all is not sniffles and coughs! On my way home Friday night I helped these two drunk guys navigate their way on the subway and one of them was so enthusiastic about it that every time I answered one of their questions he was, like, "double high five!" right in the middle of the subway car. Usually I slap my headphones on and steer clear of the drunks, but they were totally harmless and I couldn't help giggling.

Okay, maybe it's a little sad that one of the high points of my week was drunk guys on the subway. Maybe you had to be there. XD

And now I'm sitting by the window writing by candlelight and contemplating starting a challenge story again because I think there's just no way I can finish the one I'm working on in time for the deadline. It's just immense, and if I want to do the idea justice I just need more time with it. Am considering writing something a little more manageable for the challenge and finishing this one later.

Am also considering taking the night off from the three stories I've been focusing on for the last month or so and writing some lighthearted Eureka fic. Maybe my poor, congested brain just needs a happybreak. And more coffee. But then, that just goes without saying.

So I've sort of mentioned this obliquely before, and I'm now legally bound not to talk about the particulars, but after months of back and forth we finally went into arbitration over my union grievance today and a settlement was reached. An hour after everyone else in the office went home, but it was reached and frankly, that's all that matters to me.

And then I got snowed on on my way home.

Dear friends list,

So I swore off LJ from 8:59 pm till I managed to get home from work, download Supernatural 4.1, and watch it. And then... skip=50? Seriously? Now that I no longer have a tv on my floor at work, this season is gonna kill me with the waiting.

Reactions tomorrow. Right now I need to post a thing, go for a walk then get some sleep.

ETA: Also, because I am not actually a hot boy with back tattoos...

Picture meme
- take a picture of yourself right now.
- don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair - just take a picture.
- post that picture with NO editing.
- post these instructions with the picture.