I love the quiet anguish in this story, and Dean's inability to deal with Sam's grief AND his own really comes through (though it still frustrates me every bit as much as it did in canon).
Why did he do it? Dean suddenly wants to ask him in a moment of weakness. Why did he do it, Sammy? Why did he fucking do it, and how did I not know? Because he knows his father just about as well as he knows himself, and he never saw it coming. I really love this passage, and the self-torment inside it.
Dean's never really loved anyone who wasn't family, not really. So true, and such an essential part of Dean's innate loneliness- which he's never realized.
I'm not a John/Bobby shipper (not opposed, just don't see it), so I have no opinion on that part of the story at all. But I love the Dean voice here, and even in a Gen sense I think John was a very frustrating man even for (maybe especially for) the people who loved him, and that would compound the grief in so many ways for Bobby exactly as it does for Sam.
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I love the quiet anguish in this story, and Dean's inability to deal with Sam's grief AND his own really comes through (though it still frustrates me every bit as much as it did in canon).
Why did he do it? Dean suddenly wants to ask him in a moment of weakness. Why did he do it, Sammy? Why did he fucking do it, and how did I not know? Because he knows his father just about as well as he knows himself, and he never saw it coming.
I really love this passage, and the self-torment inside it.
Dean's never really loved anyone who wasn't family, not really.
So true, and such an essential part of Dean's innate loneliness- which he's never realized.
I'm not a John/Bobby shipper (not opposed, just don't see it), so I have no opinion on that part of the story at all. But I love the Dean voice here, and even in a Gen sense I think John was a very frustrating man even for (maybe especially for) the people who loved him, and that would compound the grief in so many ways for Bobby exactly as it does for Sam.
Lovely job. :)